What Gives?

Ok, so we sold our tickets to Avenue Q for Saturday night.
And I'm bummed.
Feeling really down that we are not going to see the show.
What Gives?

I knew when we bought the season ticket packet that this was one show we probably wouldn't be seeing. I've known that for, what, eight months? But for eight months part of me has wanted to see it. Part of me has been arguing with the other part - the part that truly believes in #13 "if there is anything lovely, or of good report, or praiseworthy..." The part that decided a long time ago to not go to R rated movies. The part that doesn't want to deal with flashback memories of things that I don't want as part of my life.

And I knew if we went to it, I would feel guilty the next morning.
But I am still bummed.
What Gives?

This is so not me!